Sometimes I just have to post an honest post. A... here's my struggle post.
You know the one where you just put it out there and hope maybe someone... at least one person...gets it and says oh girl... I know.
The first two weeks of January were lovely. Busy... my new job going well... life was fab. Dreaming. Writing. Laughing.
I think I was able to distract myself from the waiting that is a big part of my life.
Waiting for SO many things. Hope gets harder for me at times in the waiting.
The last week has been hard.
I want so much for things to be different and I pray. His answer remains the same.
I got a phone call from a dear friend telling me of a job opening that is full time and totally up my alley. Like... perfection.
It's here. In my hometown.
It pays well and it is something I enjoy.
I couldn't not put in an application...so I applied. And now I wait.
My heart is torn. I would really enjoy this job but at the same time I really, really want to move. I need new community, new experiences, a place of my own. I have felt that tugging in my spirit for years...and finally feel...well, ready.
If there is anything I dislike more it's those two feelings.
It's pervaded so many areas of my life over the last week.
Tonight I ran across a piece of art that reminded me that while my plans are many His purpose will prevail.
As much as I am struggling right now I am trying to remember while I want those other things....I want His purpose in my life more. I want the dreams He has placed in my heart fulfilled.
I am talking comfort in His word this week. And in the love of friends who understand and listen. And in laughter and guilty pleasure television. The small things.
When is the last time you were struggling in a major way?
Joining in with Jen and the SDG sisters.